The Moment I Realized...I Had To Change!

I was the person everyone turned to me when they need something, for their purposes. I gave them without any rejection: my time, my support and also as a listener. But when I needed the something in return I was alone. People come into my life ,took what they needed and leave me alone without saying a word. I was hurt and i started questioning myself that am i really bad. But one day , I got a realization that changed everything in my life, because I started noticing everything. I didn't notice it at first i thought for them I am being a good friend but It was my thoughts only because  

When I was in a situation where i can't do nothing to that problem. I told about this to my friends and then they started to leaving me without telling a reason.

At that time I started feeling sad, hopeless and in all I was alone. But I overcome this one day after all a friend left me without an reason but this time I was so disappointed because it was my best friend who was like my word and a few weeks ago she texted me let's forgot all those memories and she gone without telling me the reason. I sat with my thoughts I was so angry and at the same time I was sad because I get blamed over everything that what needs I did it to them. But instead of overthinking i thought why do I allow them to giving my all efforts that they don't even care. The question I asked to myself was the moment I knew I had to change myself for being used.

I realized the problem was not just people it was me who said yes to them for being used. Then i set a limit because self respect is more important than being available and i stopped being available to people so that they don't take advantage of me. I learned to say no, and if a person comes to me for something I thinks that is this person is loyal to me or just came for their needs. If i think my this person will affect me i will keep distancing my self from them. I also started to focusing on myself i stopped begging for the reason from the people who left me. I accepted the situation that people will change when they find someone better. The reality is people still doing this to me they still leave but the difference is it doesn't affect me anymore. But a sad reality for me was this was done my friends especially my best friend.

Now I just lost my trust in everyone and accepted that everything happens for a reason. So i accepted the situation and learned to smile even i have to suffer.

This change was not easy but it was very important and i think so it will be better for me.! 

Fitha Fahmi. K. A

Second Semester B. A. Economics